Wow it's been since what, my birthday since I updated this thing, huh? Wow. Decided to come back to this thing. Now, let's see how long I actually stay.

I turned 28 today (may 6). yay

Happy 1 year birthday, Honey-buns.

Happy 1st birthday, Stardust. Hard to believe she is 1 year old already.

Someone who has been there for more than half my life has left me.

Feisty
Born: Easter, 1994
Died: Valentine's Day, 2009


She was the oldest of a total of 12 cats. She was nearly 15 years old. She lived to see the funerals of 4 cats that were younger than she was. She passes the title of "Oldest" to 2 boy kitties, Anubis and Tubby, our set of brothers. They are 13 years old, but still act like they are 3. So hopefully they will live for many more years to come.


Good night, Feisty. I will see you at Rainbow Bridge with the other kitties and doggies. We will all miss you. I love you.

Been a while since I last said anything to you. Since last year, I believe. Don't know, as I didn't bother to see. All I remember is that it said 5 weeks ago was the last time I posted anything. Anywho, here's is the news.

It would appear that I will be moving to Pennsylvania in about a month. My friend there has gotten a camper trailer that I can live in with him and his 3 dogs until I can get a job, vehicle, and a place of my own. It's a 27 foot long camper thing. Hopefully it won't be too small with me, him, his 3 dogs, and 2 of my dogs. We shall see. Hopefully it won't take very long for me to get a job out there and get a place of my own.

And of course, my parents are trying to talk me out of moving out there, even though they are saying that they are not trying to. I will hate being so far away from my parents, but I am tired of living so close to them. I would like to live my own life. Of course, I will be sending them money every 2 weeks or so to help pay for dog food and help with the house expenses, seeing as how, according to the government, my parents make way too much to be on food stamps. Which means that we won't have any food to eat, as the 2200 dollars a month my parents do make (father's retirement and his pathetically small paycheck of 150 bucks a week from work) goes for the house payment, car payment, car insurance, gas for the car, electric bill, phone/cable/internet bill, water bill, and 3 other bills. And 50 bucks a week or so for dog food (which will be less when I move out) and cat food, doesn't leave much for money for food. And I refuse to go to those stupid church food banks as the food is either expired, rotten, or moldy. Sure, it's free, but I expect the food to be edible. And canned food gets real old when that's all you eat.

So yeah. I celebrated my husky Starlight's 2nd birthday back on the 15th of January. I went into the back yard, kneeled at her grave, put my head on the stones marking her resting place, and sang happy birthday to her. And in 22 days, I will be celebrating the 1 year birthday of my husky Stardust. And 10 days after that, I will celebrate my golden retriever Honey's 1st birthday.

And that's all that has been going on in my life.

Here's my obligatory Happy New Year post. Yippee.

Seeing as how it is only 4 days away, I took some pictures of all my doggies. They want to wish everyone a "fuzzy" Christmas.

( pictures )

I know this thing is old, but I figured I would get into the christmas spirit and share one the the best christmas songs.
Enjoy

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/bkremix

and I feel like jumping.

I live in a small town (approximately 10,000 people). I am 27 years old, which isn't that old. I have been unemployed for 2.5 months now. It is getting to the point where I feel like saying screw it all, and just walk away, not caring if I die or not. I have literally applied to every single place in town, both to the places I had a chance at getting a job, as well as the places I had no chance (such as beauty shops and women's clothing stores). I went through all 5 temporary agencies in town. I went through the unemployment office. Nothing has been successful. I can't even get a job out of town because I have no car of my own.
I feel like a huge failure. Everyone in my life has a job. My little sister has a job. So does her husband. My older sister has a job. So does her husband. My father has a job. And here I am, stuck at home, unable to leave. I can't get on welfare because I don't have a legion of children. I can't get unemployment because the last place I worked at fired me for policy violation (I didn't shave that morning, and my my face barely had any stubble on it). I have seriously thought of committing robberies and other such crime to get money. I tried asking for help from my little sister and her husband, since I let them live with me for 2 years. I asked them if I could head up north in this state with them and live with them until I can get a job and a place of my own, because they live in a rather large college city. Their excuse as to why they won't is "our apartment complex doesn't allow visitors overnight". I don't know of anyone that I could convince to let me move in with them until I can get a job and a place of my own that is out of town....

I don't really know why I am even saying this. Not like anyone here could help me change my situation. My parents aren't much help, as all they say to me is "You aren't the only one who can't get a job. There are a lot of people who can't." I know this, but I don't care about those other people. They are not me. I can't do anything to help those people. All that matters to me at this point in time is me and trying to improve my situation.

I can't even get hired at McDonalds or Walmart or any other fast food place. I can't even get a job delivering pizza, as that and being a casino cashier is what I have the most experience in doing. I have been a pizza delivery driver for 2.5 years, a casino cashier for 2 years. In the past 7 years (since I left college), I have been unemployed for a total of 2.5 years..... no one wants to hire someone like that. At least in this stupid worthless town..... I feel like destroying something I am so frustrated right now.... I can see why people commit crimes....

I was looking at some old video from back in july of this year, right after I got my golden retriever girl, Honey. She was almost 4 months old, and she looked so little. She is nearly 8 months old now. Back in the video, she was maybe 14 inches tall, and 28-30 pounds. Now, she is nearly 2 feet tall (maybe a few inches taller) and 67 pounds. in 4 months. She's my youngest girl, but is my biggest. To give a comparison of my girls, here they are:

Barley - 7 years old, 55 pounds (chow/german shepherd)
Rosemary - 2 years old, 56 pounds (black lab/golden retriever)
Stardust - 8 months old, 38 pounds (siberian husky)
Honey - 7 months old, 67 pounds (golden retriever)
All female.

Gonna be under a cut

( read if you want, possible high profanity )

Yeah, that's right. I just learned this morning when I came in from sleeping in the garage that my older sister is a prego now. Means I am gonna be an uncle, and my parents are gonna be grandparents. I don't know if I should be happy or not..... The one who said she is never gonna get married, got married back in June. The one that said she was never gonna have kids, is the first of us to have a child. I just hope my parents don't try to start forcing me to go out looking for a woman to give them grandkids. Just not interested. Now maybe this will force my sister to get a fucking car. I hate wasting gas on her.

Yep, that's right. I am gonna be screwed. I live in a small piece of shit town, and I don't have a job. I also have large gaps of unemployment because I live in a small piece of shit town with no jobs. There are 3 cities around this town, but they are all 1 hour drive away. (Cinncy OH, Louisville KY, and Columbus IN) Since they are 1 hour away, it makes it irrelevant to even look for employment in those places because the pay wouldn't be worth the cost of the drive.

I have gone to the temp agencies here in town. None have any jobs. I went to the fast food places in town. None are hiring. I went to all the different retail places. None are hiring. I have gone everywhere in this shithole, and no one is going to hire a 27 year old MALE with large gaps of unemployment. I can't even get training to become a semi truck driver.

It's tempting to take a gun and blow my brains out. I fucked myself out of ever going back to college because of my grades. I am fucked when it comes to finding employment because I live in a small town and the economy is going down faster than a cheap whore.

( ranting under the cut )

Well, I think that is all for now.

I just got done giving my husky baby a bath. She is nice and clean after being out in the mud and rain all day. Still looking for a damn job. Unable to obtain one. Still. And it is pissing me off.

Also really really wanting to get to go to MFF this year. Oh well.

I guess I should actually post something to my own livejournal. I believe that I may make this be friends only, as I will be talking about certain things that I don't want just anyone to be able to read. If you want to know about me, take a look in my bio section of the user profile.