Keeper of the Light of the Stars

holy crap

Fri, 20 Nov 2009 21:03:57 GMT

Wow it's been since what, my birthday since I updated this thing, huh? Wow. Decided to come back to this thing. Now, let's see how long I actually stay.

it's my birfday

Thu, 07 May 2009 03:53:53 GMT

I turned 28 today (may 6). yay

Happy Birthday Honey.

Fri, 13 Mar 2009 23:38:49 GMT

Happy 1 year birthday, Honey-buns.

Happy Birthday!

Tue, 03 Mar 2009 16:02:11 GMT

Happy 1st birthday, Stardust. Hard to believe she is 1 year old already.

My heart was broken on Valentine's Day, 2009

Sat, 14 Feb 2009 21:34:10 GMT

Someone who has been there for more than half my life has left me.

Feisty
Born: Easter, 1994
Died: Valentine's Day, 2009

She was the oldest of a total of 12 cats. She was nearly 15 years old. She lived to see the funerals of 4 cats that were younger than she was. She passes the title of "Oldest" to 2 boy kitties, Anubis and Tubby, our set of brothers. They are 13 years old, but still act like they are 3. So hopefully they will live for many more years to come.

Good night, Feisty. I will see you at Rainbow Bridge with the other kitties and doggies. We will all miss you. I love you.

Hello again, LJ

Mon, 09 Feb 2009 21:27:38 GMT

Been a while since I last said anything to you. Since last year, I believe. Don't know, as I didn't bother to see. All I remember is that it said 5 weeks ago was the last time I posted anything. Anywho, here's is the news.

It would appear that I will be moving to Pennsylvania in about a month. My friend there has gotten a camper trailer that I can live in with him and his 3 dogs until I can get a job, vehicle, and a place of my own. It's a 27 foot long camper thing. Hopefully it won't be too small with me, him, his 3 dogs, and 2 of my dogs. We shall see. Hopefully it won't take very long for me to get a job out there and get a place of my own.

And of course, my parents are trying to talk me out of moving out there, even though they are saying that they are not trying to. I will hate being so far away from my parents, but I am tired of living so close to them. I would like to live my own life. Of course, I will be sending them money every 2 weeks or so to help pay for dog food and help with the house expenses, seeing as how, according to the government, my parents make way too much to be on food stamps. Which means that we won't have any food to eat, as the 2200 dollars a month my parents do make (father's retirement and his pathetically small paycheck of 150 bucks a week from work) goes for the house payment, car payment, car insurance, gas for the car, electric bill, phone/cable/internet bill, water bill, and 3 other bills. And 50 bucks a week or so for dog food (which will be less when I move out) and cat food, doesn't leave much for money for food. And I refuse to go to those stupid church food banks as the food is either expired, rotten, or moldy. Sure, it's free, but I expect the food to be edible. And canned food gets real old when that's all you eat.

So yeah. I celebrated my husky Starlight's 2nd birthday back on the 15th of January. I went into the back yard, kneeled at her grave, put my head on the stones marking her resting place, and sang happy birthday to her. And in 22 days, I will be celebrating the 1 year birthday of my husky Stardust. And 10 days after that, I will celebrate my golden retriever Honey's 1st birthday.

And that's all that has been going on in my life.

Happy New Year

Thu, 01 Jan 2009 17:48:06 GMT

Here's my obligatory Happy New Year post. Yippee.

My doggies say Merry Christmas

Sun, 21 Dec 2008 18:13:21 GMT

Seeing as how it is only 4 days away, I took some pictures of all my doggies. They want to wish everyone a "fuzzy" Christmas.

First one is Barley, my chow/german shepherd mix.

Next, Honey the golden retriever is acting silly.

Rosie the black lab/golden retriever mix is being a little camera shy.

Stardust the husky seems kinda mad at me.

Squirt the unknown mutt puppy says "ain't I cute?"

Slipper the jack russell mix

And finally Princess the chihuahua

There's my girls and boys wishing everyone a Merry fuzzy Christmas. It was a little difficult to keep the hat on a few of them. Stardust seems to be the only one who gets red-eye, while the others get yellow. Except for Princess. She gets blue-gray-green.

Old

Tue, 25 Nov 2008 15:26:52 GMT

I know this thing is old, but I figured I would get into the christmas spirit and share one the the best christmas songs.
Enjoy

http://www.albinoblacksheep.com/flash/bkremix

at the end of my rope

Tue, 11 Nov 2008 22:54:20 GMT

and I feel like jumping.

I live in a small town (approximately 10,000 people). I am 27 years old, which isn't that old. I have been unemployed for 2.5 months now. It is getting to the point where I feel like saying screw it all, and just walk away, not caring if I die or not. I have literally applied to every single place in town, both to the places I had a chance at getting a job, as well as the places I had no chance (such as beauty shops and women's clothing stores). I went through all 5 temporary agencies in town. I went through the unemployment office. Nothing has been successful. I can't even get a job out of town because I have no car of my own.
I feel like a huge failure. Everyone in my life has a job. My little sister has a job. So does her husband. My older sister has a job. So does her husband. My father has a job. And here I am, stuck at home, unable to leave. I can't get on welfare because I don't have a legion of children. I can't get unemployment because the last place I worked at fired me for policy violation (I didn't shave that morning, and my my face barely had any stubble on it). I have seriously thought of committing robberies and other such crime to get money. I tried asking for help from my little sister and her husband, since I let them live with me for 2 years. I asked them if I could head up north in this state with them and live with them until I can get a job and a place of my own, because they live in a rather large college city. Their excuse as to why they won't is "our apartment complex doesn't allow visitors overnight". I don't know of anyone that I could convince to let me move in with them until I can get a job and a place of my own that is out of town....

I don't really know why I am even saying this. Not like anyone here could help me change my situation. My parents aren't much help, as all they say to me is "You aren't the only one who can't get a job. There are a lot of people who can't." I know this, but I don't care about those other people. They are not me. I can't do anything to help those people. All that matters to me at this point in time is me and trying to improve my situation.

I can't even get hired at McDonalds or Walmart or any other fast food place. I can't even get a job delivering pizza, as that and being a casino cashier is what I have the most experience in doing. I have been a pizza delivery driver for 2.5 years, a casino cashier for 2 years. In the past 7 years (since I left college), I have been unemployed for a total of 2.5 years..... no one wants to hire someone like that. At least in this stupid worthless town..... I feel like destroying something I am so frustrated right now.... I can see why people commit crimes....

stuff

Sat, 08 Nov 2008 20:10:32 GMT

I was looking at some old video from back in july of this year, right after I got my golden retriever girl, Honey. She was almost 4 months old, and she looked so little. She is nearly 8 months old now. Back in the video, she was maybe 14 inches tall, and 28-30 pounds. Now, she is nearly 2 feet tall (maybe a few inches taller) and 67 pounds. in 4 months. She's my youngest girl, but is my biggest. To give a comparison of my girls, here they are:

Barley - 7 years old, 55 pounds (chow/german shepherd)
Rosemary - 2 years old, 56 pounds (black lab/golden retriever)
Stardust - 8 months old, 38 pounds (siberian husky)
Honey - 7 months old, 67 pounds (golden retriever)
All female.

Decision '08 Presidential Results

Wed, 05 Nov 2008 01:21:07 GMT

getting pissed off

Thu, 30 Oct 2008 23:47:18 GMT

Gonna be under a cut

As the title says, I am getting pissed off. I have been unemployed for approximately 2 months now. I tried going back to the pizza place I used to work at back in July when they were hiring drivers, but the mother fuckers wouldn't hire me back. I have applied to literally every single place in this town that I have a remote chance of getting hired at.
But no place is willing to fucking give me a fucking chance. KFC is hiring, but I have not received an interview. The local Gamestop is hiring for the holidays, but I know I won't get a job there, because I am not a 16-20 year old little boy who's parents buy him the latest video games when he wants them. The McDonalds is hiring, but I won't get hired on there because I am not a fucking Mexican or a fucking woman. Dairy Queen won't hire a male. I applied at the local Walmart, but they won't fucking hire me because my father's brother is a manager there.

I really, really, hate small fucking towns. I wish I could just up and move, but I don't have a fucking car that is mine.

You ever just want to go on a murder spree because you are so fucking frustrated and annoyed and pissed off? Just kill anyone in your way because no one will give you a job? At least there, I will have a place to live, food every day, and not have to worry about fucking money.
Or better yet, just kill myself. Then I would be out of this fucking town. I wouldn't be bothered by anyone else. No worries about money or other fucking bullshit. And I would be with my Starlight.

uncle

Tue, 14 Oct 2008 13:46:59 GMT

Yeah, that's right. I just learned this morning when I came in from sleeping in the garage that my older sister is a prego now. Means I am gonna be an uncle, and my parents are gonna be grandparents. I don't know if I should be happy or not..... The one who said she is never gonna get married, got married back in June. The one that said she was never gonna have kids, is the first of us to have a child. I just hope my parents don't try to start forcing me to go out looking for a woman to give them grandkids. Just not interested. Now maybe this will force my sister to get a fucking car. I hate wasting gas on her.

Screwed

Thu, 09 Oct 2008 20:19:21 GMT

Yep, that's right. I am gonna be screwed. I live in a small piece of shit town, and I don't have a job. I also have large gaps of unemployment because I live in a small piece of shit town with no jobs. There are 3 cities around this town, but they are all 1 hour drive away. (Cinncy OH, Louisville KY, and Columbus IN) Since they are 1 hour away, it makes it irrelevant to even look for employment in those places because the pay wouldn't be worth the cost of the drive.

I have gone to the temp agencies here in town. None have any jobs. I went to the fast food places in town. None are hiring. I went to all the different retail places. None are hiring. I have gone everywhere in this shithole, and no one is going to hire a 27 year old MALE with large gaps of unemployment. I can't even get training to become a semi truck driver.

It's tempting to take a gun and blow my brains out. I fucked myself out of ever going back to college because of my grades. I am fucked when it comes to finding employment because I live in a small town and the economy is going down faster than a cheap whore.

It pisses me off that all these fucking politicians have millions of dollars, and the CEOs of these companies have millions (or billions) of dollars. And they don't do fucking SHIT! Their employees are living in poverty. 8 years without an increase in the minimum wage, while the cost of everything kept increasing. They finally increase the minimum wage to something more reasonable, but what to the fucking assholes at the tops of these companies do? Jack up the fucking prices of everything to make up what they would have lost. Instead of making 30 million dollars a year, they would have made 25 million a year. OH NO!!! The horror! Now, even though the minimum wage is $6.55 an hour, it's like getting paid about $3 an hour, which is less than it has been in 15 fucking years.
In order to survive, you have to have 2+ incomes. Most of the time, you need 3 or 4 because these assholes charge too much for shit. Gas is down to less than $100 a barrel, yet we are still paying the prices when it was $135 a barrel. What the fuck?
Walmart here in town will not hire me because my fucking uncle is a manager. He has absolutely NOTHING to do with me and my life. It's like I don't exist to him. And that's fine with me. But Walmart apparently thinks he would give me some kind of special treatment just because he is my fucking uncle. That's another reason I hate this town. My father's family are all here. I hate them more than anything. And these places in town see that I am related to those dipshits, and they think that I will act like them. Or the people who run these places have some sort of dislike for my cousins and such, that they won't even give me a fucking chance.

I need to get out of here, but in order to do that I need a job. And how do I get a job? By getting out of this god damn town. Oh I hate this place. I hate everything about this fucking place. I wish this fucking town would vanish off the face of the planet. It would definitely be an improvement.

Well, I think that is all for now.

update

Wed, 08 Oct 2008 23:04:33 GMT

I just got done giving my husky baby a bath. She is nice and clean after being out in the mud and rain all day. Still looking for a damn job. Unable to obtain one. Still. And it is pissing me off.

Also really really wanting to get to go to MFF this year. Oh well.

none

Wed, 01 Oct 2008 17:14:44 GMT

I guess I should actually post something to my own livejournal. I believe that I may make this be friends only, as I will be talking about certain things that I don't want just anyone to be able to read. If you want to know about me, take a look in my bio section of the user profile.